I cleared out my block list y'all

I cleared out my ‘block list’ which took me way longer than I want to admit, publicly. 

My friend Angel says, ‘people are not disposable’ but they are on social media with the click of a button. Gone!

As I began to remove the very long list of people I have blocked over the past 10 years, I started to see parts of who I used to be and the person I am striving to become. 

Aside from the many half-naked “floosies” & spam accounts I blocked, I started to see the names of people I recognized but I couldn’t remember how they even ended up there. 

What caused me to block that person? 

Here is where I landed on that dreaded self-evaluation day in the car rider line.

Maybe it was when…

They unfriended me and it hurt my feelings. 

I was scared they would attack my ministry.

They sent me a PM accusing me of sending people to hell.

They liked all the pictures of my husband but none of me. 

They posted something I didn’t agree with and I didn’t want to see it anymore.

They called me things I knew I wasn’t.

They posted ugly things about Christians doing yoga. 

They posted ugly things about my church or The Church.

They got too political.

They truly cut me to the core and I just wanted to get them back so BLOCK was my weapon of choice. 

I just simply could not handle an adult conversation with them. 

I wanted to respond to something but decided blocking would be my response.

I leaned heavily into public activity during a season and I feared my ministry would suffer. 

I really can’t pinpoint my reason on some, I just know these are all things I found when I went looking inside myself trying to figure it all out. 

Here was where I landed in my thoughts. 

 I could easily take this list and defend or try to justify each reason. The problem with that is there are so many “They” statements and so many “I” statements. 

They and I statements to me mean two things. 

Victim mentality and Self-absorbed. 

Jesus is nowhere in either of those.

I am not on social media for inner circle relationships. NOW, I have met people there and they have become a part of that circle but that is not what keeps me there. My actual friends have my phone number. My actual friends know my kid's names. My actual friends know when my birthday is. My actual friends pick up the phone and say ‘Hey… can we talk about something’. 

I got on social media because of yoga. 

NOTE the name…Sally’s mat. 

The social media space is not where I need to be hashing out my issues behind a keyboard or a block button. 

The social media space is a platform for me to point people to Him! 

NOT block people from the positive things I post. After all, I am not typically a Negative Nelly as long as the price of sweet tea doesn't go up again and the car rider mommas get it together. ;) 

Who am I to block the vision of those in need of hope, grace, and forgiveness?

I am healing y'all. 

The Lord is growing me so much. 

It is a hard but beautiful work. 

So to my old block list:

I am sorry for not facing reality and thinking only about my feelings and not yours.  

I am sorry that I was not capable of processing and decided blocking you would be easier than dealing. 

Will you forgive me? 

My block list is officially empty now.

I even took those half-naked floosies off! Who knows maybe one of my posts will bless them in some way. 

I love yall! Thank you for reading my mess. 

The light in me is the light of Jesus Christ and that light honors and prays blessings over each of you! 

~Sally